Sunday, November 16, 2014

medical updates...that is really I have to share at this point

So for starters, someone extremely close to us, had a stroke last Saturday. His wife was able to somehow get him into the car and to the nearest emergency room. From there he had to go to a different hospital for better treatment. His stepson had to drive his wife and himself to the hospital because there were to no ambulances available not to mention, it would have taken longer for the air ambulance than for his step son to drive him. He started out in ICU, then moved to a regular room and now I am happy to report he is in rehab. So I am so happy he is doing a lot better.

V wasn't feeling well last week. He is feeling better, and sleeping a lot. I am hoping he is growing. I will tell you he no longer fits in his size 6 jeans, he went overnight into size 7 and we have donated a bunch of clothes to a kid just a year under him that has nothing. That sort of thing breaks my heart.

So I had a spot removed as it had changed in the last few months, lucky for me it is good to go and not CANCER.

To swing back about my anxiety/depression....things are going ok, I was originally to start half a dose of medicine for a week and then move to a full dose. I didn't like how a full dose was making me feel. So I am currently still taking the half dose and honestly things are better. NOT all Rosy POSY as some people told me I would feel, but I feel mostly less stressed about things in the middle of the night. Actually I am sleeping..a ...lot!

I am still thinking about cancelling my foot doc appointment next week. I am really thinking I need it to just heal. I suspect, I will see him, he will recommend me to see him again in two weeks and 110 bucks later I am were I am. I think I would rather keep my 110 and start working out soon.

I love him

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

heath 101

Just to update you about some health stuff going on over here with Lindy and V.

We had a scare from a VIP in our lives Saturday, he had a stroke, and was in ICU until yesterday..luckily he is better and getting stronger daily. He is still in the hospital..but getting stronger.

As you know I saw the foot doc and my foot has a stress fracture. I am supposed to be taking a very large dose of Advil that scares me, so I am not taking it. Since I am in the middle of the healing process, I am debating on cancelling my follow up. My copay is $55, and for him to say "ok go back to normal activities", doesn't quite seem worth it. And in all fairness, the pain is worse, now that I am wearing shoes that put pressure on the fracture spot. Any thoughts?

I did go to the dermatologist today. He looked at two of my long standing spots and stated they are fine, the one that changed in the last few months, he shaved off and I will get the results in a week. I am surprised how much it has bruised. It is larger than the round Band-Aid. He did state he thought it would come back abnormal, so that is good.

My weight is probably (because I won't weight myself) not going down. I have been really trying to eat better, eat at home more, and bring my lunch/breakfast to work. I have been also to be monitoring my blood pressure, which I haven't done once. I am a bit nervous about it and wondering if that is why I can't breathe when I run.

V has been sickly for over 2 days. No fever, but headaches, congestion, (two kids threw up in class on Monday), to the point as soon as the Tylenol/advil would wear off, he would be crying for relief. He didn't throw up, he hasn't had a fever, so I can't keep him home. I was convinced last night when he went to bed at 6pm he wasn't going to be able to go to school today. Luckily he is feeling better and made it through the day. He also went to bed tonight at 7. So hopefully he is on the mend.

Have you ever had any health issues?

How about someone you love?

Thursday, November 6, 2014

injured officially

As many of you remember I have been suffering since before the Fox Valley Marathon..then during the marathon and after (I only did the half) I suffered with a lot of pain on the top of my foot/side of my foot.

The half marathon was 6 weeks ago. I haven't been running, I have been staying off of it, elevating it, etc..trying to get it better. Except it isn't better, so I finally broke down, saw my PCP, got an x-ray, and then saw the specialist today.

My PCP sent me a letter indicating that the x-ray did not show a fracture. When I saw the specialist today, he told me this looked like a text book stress fracture. I told him the x-ray didn't show a fracture, and without a beat, he said, well that is frustrating.

So he went to look at the x-ray and he said the metatarsal is much thicker than the others, so he is convinced it was a stress fracture and at this point, I am healing nicely. I am to take a LOT of Advil for anti-inflammation and to ice it a lot. I see him again in two weeks.

Still no running, I can bike, swim or do yoga. He did compliment me on taking it easy and trying to get it to heal. He said in two weeks I should feel a lot better and should be in about half of the pain.

Here are some pictures of things we have been up to lately


costume run with our running friends, V won scariest costume as a skeleton bat

he is a popcorn thief...don't mind the mess....we need a maid


leaf pile jumping and helping friends and a non for profit clean up leaves


got V some reading glasses...I think they look good and all of a sudden he looks so much older....

What have you been up to?

Ever have a stress fracture?

Are you running the Naperville Marathon this weekend?

Thursday, October 30, 2014

how did the appt go?

As you know, last night, I dropped a bit a bomb...so if you want to know how the appointment went..read on..

So, as I mentioned, I have horrible anxiety. By the time I made it into the doctor's office, I was sweating profusely, and my heart was pounding..so badly, my blood pressure was sky high. Which means I have to monitor it for the next 4 weeks.

Also...I did get referrals for the spot on my arm and to see the foot doc. I was to get an xray today, but I figured we can do it tomorrow (I am off, because V doesn't have school).

On the anxiety/depression she prescribed me something for the anxiety. I am to start taking a half pill for a week and then to the full pill. I am still having issues with actually taking the pill...it is only 10:34.

I do want to thank everyone for their kind words, and understanding.


OH and news....I did go running tonight with our running group and my foot is still sore.

lol

Tell me..if you ever got injured, how long were you out?



Wednesday, October 29, 2014

anxiety

Let's talk about something that no one talks about...or it is and people judge..well...let's get it out there and talk about anxiety.

First of all, no judging from me if you have anxiety or if you don't. I happen to have it. I actually suffer from it ..and tomorrow I have a doctor appointment to have her look at my foot, look at a spot on my inner arm, that I am nervous is possible skin cancer (another subject for another time), and for anxiety and depression. WOAH...look at that...just threw in another thing for the judgers out there to judge me on. And you can guess that I am having a lot of anxiety about having to go to the doctor tomorrow.

Anyone who knows me, probably already guesses these...but unsure, because I don't talk about it. I was seeing a therapist when I got pregnant with V. Want to know why? Are you sure?? Well here it is. I was living in Chicago, and I could see how easy it would be to step in front of a train. I wasn't going to act on it..I sought out help, then I was saved by a baby, that pretty much put a Band-Aid on the situation. The kind of Band-Aid that you know it should heal and be gone...but this hasn't healed and gotten better. I can't afford lots of therapy (physical or mental) and so I am going to ask for advice on if there are meds that can help. I am scared of side effects, and weight gain. I know part of my problem is my weight..and I can't seem to keep it going. I fall off the wagon daily.

I also have anxiety that my foot issues will require more than rest. Oh my list of anxiety items would keep you up at night too.

On top of all of this fun, the social worker at V's school is putting him into an anxiety group. This makes me very sad...because what if..my anxiety is making him have anxiety. I have no idea if this is even possible. But I am sure he deserves a better life, where his Momma is getting sleep, and taking better care of herself.

Please keep in mind if you are leaving a comment on this post, that you have no idea what my life is like, just as I have no idea what your life is like. So keep it respectful.

Anyone else with depression/anxiety issues? If so, how do you manage it?

(now I am trying to find the strength to hit publish..because the whole world will now know...)

Saturday, October 25, 2014

fed up and taking (some) action

So as you all know, my stupid foot has not gotten better, in fact, my other stupid foot is now getting angry as it has been compensating for angry foot 1. I have an appointment this Thursday with my PCP to get a referral to get it looked at. (and many additional referrals, nothing like waiting to get them all done at once. I do have a 'spot' that has changed ugly in the last couple of months too)

Since I have been taking time off to try to get my stupid foot (1 and 2) to get better, the weight loss I have been quietly trying to make happen, has completely stopped and possibly going in reverse. I am sure when I see the doc, they will have lots to say on this subject. I have been trying to also cut costs and calories of eating out, and trying to eat in. I need some meal/recipe ideas. We are currently working on our weekly menu so we can hit up the grocery store tomorrow.

I have been VERY quiet about something happening with one of V's activity. I do not like the lack of parental supervision of 2 of the kids, (the first outing the kids were running and trying to climb the walls with their shoes, and the 'rents ignored it, this isn't all, this is EVERYTIME) so, I reached out over a month ago, and asked how I could help, before I pulled V out and found a different, and hopefully more disciplined group to hang out with. So rumor was to split them with me being a leader of one of the groups, all sorts of drama happened, I got 'attacked with words' from one parent about 'how it was my idea to split, etc..' all sorts of drama. This wasn't my idea. I was just trying to figure out how to make it better. Long story short...it didn't happen..nothing was said for over a month..got attacked by another parent...and so at this point..next fall he will be changing groups..hopefully he is up for it, otherwise I am pulling him and not looking back. I don't want him involved with misbehaved children. (I do understand he needs to learn how to behave when others aren't, but if I can control a situation where he isn't exposed, why wouldn't I pull him?)


I completely miss running. I am not going to lie..I feel funny typing that..but I do miss getting out, getting out of breath and miss my running friends like crazy. It might be the friends the most. I run with some of the best people out there. (I am sure every running group feels the same way)

So hopefully I will get these stupid feet back on board for running. Hopefully the meal planning helps with the weight loss, and helps me for not hitting up a drive thru, since I have no plan.

Tell me, have you been injured? How do stay in contact with your friends?

Do you plan your meals? If so, do you use a program? If not, and you have a great recipe, can you share it?

Finally do you agree with controlling childhood friends? Parents- do you do it? Non parents - did you parents do this to you? (I will not accept angry comments on this subject, I firmly believe it is a parents right to help keep them on the right road controlling influences)

Thursday, October 16, 2014

Camping at Devils Lake

So my last post I kept mentioning Starved Rock...and it was WRONG. We were at Devil's Lake, WI. I was obviously exhausted.

So let me shower you in pictures of more fun we had.

night one..a balmy 29 degrees

I had not slept in a sleeping bag for years. I might have tried flipping over in my sleep only to have flipped over the cot...twice.

our tent...in the woods...with lots of critters visiting at night

hunting for twigs to start the fire

he found a friend



hiking day two



V tripped over a tree root and landed 6 inches from this edge...I almost lost it


again from where I almost lost V.

hike 2 of the day (day 2)
...and look at these views

This was all eroded, and we had to climb rocks/slide down on our butts/cross creeks by slippery, mossy rocks.

It's hard to tell, but it was really hard through this hike.




here is a better idea of what we were climbing over, and you can see V on the rock to the left, in the gray and blue.

We honestly had an amazing time. We went with friends, and it was just a lot of fun. I don't know if I would have gone on either hike if it wasn't for my adventure seeking friends.

I would recommend Devil's Lake to anyone. It was completely beautiful there.

Where is your favorite state/national park?

Do you hike? I was told this isn't hiking, but 'bouldering'. I had never heard of this before.

I was just SOOOO happy to not have seen a snake. I HATE snakes.